My Holy Places/ I Know


I just got home from the General Young Women’s Broadcast for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, during which I was challenged to write about my holy places. The places or moments wherein I feel the most ME, the most powerful, the most like a daughter of God who is living her beliefs.

My bedroom.  I finally got around to making my bedroom exactly how I want it. It’s warm and inviting. It’s vintage. It’s beautiful. And when I can just be alone for a while and pick up one of my composition notebooks to write, I feel bliss. I feel like I can do anything with my talent. And I feel so grateful that God blessed me with a love for the written word.

Any place where I don’t feel like I’m not living up to my potential and my mom doesn’t have a reason to think that. I lost my moms trust once. I could never lose her love, or the love of my Heavenly Father, but trust can be lost, and sometimes its hard to get back. I felt lost. There was NOTHING I wanted more than to get my mom’s trust back, but I was too scared to do anything. I was scared to move. Because if I moved in the wrong direction our relationship would be that much father away, and it would be that much harder away. Really, I didn’t even want to leave my house because it was out there that the trust had been lost. Or so I thought. Really the reason the trust was lost was INSIDE ME, because every second I was out in that big scary world, I still was making choices, I was still controlling the trust. And finally I realized that the only way I could earn my mom’s trust back, was to go back out in the world and prove that I could make the right decisions when I wasn’t sitting in my safe house. And my mom let me. She trusted me enough to let me prove that she deserved my trust. So I guess I was really just proving that to myself…

She trust me now. I don’t feel lost. I don’t feel stuck.

Young Women’s. I wish the other Laurel’s in my ward could see what a holy place Young Women’s is, both on Sundays and at our weekday activities. I am starting to become pretty used to being the lone laurel at Wednesday activities. The others don’t come the often. Yes, I don’t have a job, and I don’t play the cello and do point ballet, I don’t have hours of homework anymore. But I do have a testimony of the power of taking time out of your day for the Lord. One of my leader’s shared a quote the other day about the promised blessings that come when you take time out of your busy lives for God and the Gospel. The blessings included more energy, a sharper mind, more talents, even stronger muscles! My point ballerina friend wasn’t there to hear that quote, I wanted her to her it. All I could think was, so she would be better at ballet if she stopped practicing to go to mutual. I think that is so cool.

Any place I write. Writing is my favorite, I just love it. And I for me any place where I feel an itch to write, is a holy place. Any place where you feel drippy with passion, excitement and power because you are just dying to use and share your talents, is one of the most holy places of all.

The Temple. I realized something one day. My goal is to make it back to the Celestial Kingdom, and inside the Temple you can sit in the Celestial Room and experience what it will be like in the Celestial Kingdom. Okay, that’s like sitting in a lovely Italian restaurant and experiencing what it will be like when I go to Italy. Except way better, because everyone knows Italian food here is nothing like Italian food in there. Did you get that? In just a few years I will be able to experience exactly when I am living my entire life for, ANYTIME I WANT. Why doesn’t everyone just sit in the Celestial room constantly?!

Tonight one of the speakers said, “I keep my testimony vibrant by writing it down.” And of course when my brain heard that its was like, “hey! I write things down! And I have a testimony!” So I am going to make my testimony more vibrant, right now.

I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is completely true. I know that my church is the reason I have found complete bliss and joy, and that anyone can feel the same way. I know that I am a Daughter of God, and that my Father in Heaven loves me unconditionally, always. I know that I can always fix my mistakes, and get back on the path I want to be on. I know I have never ending potential, and I know I will live up to that potential with God’s help. I know that if you pray and can receive the hope and inspiration you need. I know that God will always answer our prayers. I know that is never too late to change our direction. I know that there are prophets on the Earth today that receive inspiration from God. I know that the Book of Mormon is a completely true book.

My name is Emma, I’m 16 years old, and I am a Mormon.

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